How strange that everything is going so well still. I read back on my blog and saw that I wrote that everything is going well and I hoped it lasted...well it has. I have had a couple bumps in the road, like my roomate bailing out on me and the never ending battle with money, but I am pressing on and life is good. How strange that Dane and the boys will be home in 10 weeks from Monday. Life in general is so much busier when they are home and it is much more exciting. I'm trying not to get my hopes up about the boy. It either happens or it doesn't and either way it will be fine (at least this is what I try and tell myself). I am still getting remarks about me waiting for him. I understand everyone has an opinion of their own, trust me I am the queen of giving my opinion, but obviously its not making a difference so you would think they would drop it by now. Not ONE of my friends can say they have never done something that sounded crazy to everyone else but made sense to them. I wish they would understand that I am a grown woman and have lived enough to know what makes me happy and what the best decisions for that happiness are.
My dad is out of prison and so far so good. He is establishing his life and his relationships. He has made mends with my little sister, Mickaella's, mom. He bought a truck from my uncle and will be getting an apartment soon. He is making me nervous by seeing Nina, his ex. She is toxic. They had the most unhealthy relationship, in more ways than one. I will hopefully be visiting him soon. I need to see him and overwhelm him with love so he knows what he will be missing if he falls back to drugs. He made a point the other day to tell me I dont know him at all, and truth is I dont. Even though I spent every summer with him and the family, I never have met my father. I have only met my dad on drugs. I am excited to see this man that everyone speaks so highly of.
Moving is still in the works. I will be living by myself and am looking for places. I can't afford much so it is making looking a little harder but I will find something. I want to sell everything I own and start fresh, I wish that was realistic. Maybe it will be if I play my cards right and stop buying coffee every morning. I need to invest in a coffee maker.
Oh....and I have lost 6lbs.
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