Day -13

It’s that time again, the time where I have to say goodbye. I decided I will go by what day it is this time. Today is -13 because he hasn’t deployed yet, but will in 13 days. This time is going to be much harder. Just thinking about it creates this immense empty feeling. I don’t know what I am going to do without him. When the weekends come and he is gone I am not sure what I will do with myself, new hobbies maybe? It’s so funny reading back on my blog and reading what I wrote while he was gone last time. We were in the awkward stage last time, where you aren’t sure what your relationship is or where it will go. He came home last time and things were alright. It was a little weird at first and progressed very slowly. Our entire relationship has been slow and steady but I believe that was for the better and has made it what it is today. Today I know I love him and he loves me. We are good and only getting better. Most relationships are opposite. They have that honeymoon phase and regress. Our relationship has been so much of the opposite. We have learned so much about each other and have grown into a healthy loving relationship. We have both made changes in ourselves and has really worked well in bettering what we have. When Dane comes home, we will be moving in together! How exciting! Well…I will keep you posted. Be prepared for an emotional Kelsie Rollercoaster. This is going to be a crazy one, but well worth it. He is VERY worth it.