Sad Story.

So I had this friend. She was a very good friend,in fact one of the best, that I thought would be for life. We met in high school and partied together a couple times. We clicked instantly but lost contact. A few years after graduation we got into contact again and became super close. We were there for eachother through some of the most important parts of eachtothers lives. I was there through her marriages beginning and both the births of her children. We were pregnant together in fact. I was pregnant with my first and she was pregnant with her 2nd. She was there for me through my life altering break up from my daughters father and the ups and downs after that. I was also there for her through her failing marriage and through her divorce. Even though we went through all of this together, we are no longer friends. Why you ask? Because the man she divorced and always said was a liar told her we hang out and she choose this one time to believe him? He tells her me and him hang out and whatever else...this is CRAZINESS! First off, she was one of my very best friends and if I was her friend at all she would have never thought so little of me. Second, I never got along with him so why in gods name would I choose now to hang out with him alone. Third the only time that I have interaction with her ex-husband is if there is a party, group dinner, or a friends get together. Her ex-husband is best friends with my best friends boyfriend. We hang out in the same circle. I am with my best friend every weekend and am involved with one of the boys he hangs out with. I can't help that he is friends with all of my friends. What sucks the most is that she chooses this one time in her life to believe his bullshit. He is obviously telling her this crap to upset her and it worked. I tried to tell her I missed her and she called me a back stabbing bitch. I wasn't a backstabbing bitch when I was giving you all the divorce advice or when you needed someone to talk to! I have NEVER fucked over a friend in my entire life. I gave up on our friendship after that conversation. Maybe its not me who is the one that has changed, maybe its her. Sad story.

Sitting WAITING Wishing...

So I finally asked him. I debated for days wether I should say something or leave it alone...but Bailey helped me see the correct choice. So I asked him...

He was just a friend. We partied with our tight group of friends every weekend for, especially the last 6 months.Then 2 weeks before he left for Afghanistan "we" happend. I wasn't sure if this was a casual thing or if feelings were going to get involved but I went with it. I was sure it was going to be casual because with his history of girls recently I was just sure we were going to be casual. We didn't up being very casual. I like him and he likes me. Go figure. He left 2 weeks ago today. So here I was wondering now what. Am I waiting for him? Does he want me to wait for him? Does he consider me for something serious or was it just casual? I needed some kind of answer before I waited 27 more weeks for nothing.....

The conclusion....I am waiting for him. :)

Mess up my bed with me....

I saw Dear John with Carolyn this past weekend. It was very cute. There is a song called Paperweight that plays throughout the movie. It's one of those songs that instantly have you hooked. I have listed to it repeadly everyday since. It puts me in this lovey dovey reminisant moods. There is another song on the soundtrack that I really like too. I wish I could play the guitar so I could play the song and sing it acusticly. Its called Little House. The girl from the movie actually sings the song. My cousin Hailey could probably sing this song very well. I miss her. She's my best friend. I talk to here every single day. When I don't talk to her I feel like something is missing. I really wish we lived near eachother. I actually wish I lived near my Dad's side of the family. I miss them all and I have never had a chance to be near them. I have a million cousins and we area ll very close in age. I would totally move but I have too much going on with life in Vegas. Well...I dont have much else. I am still happy and things are still good. It's very out of the ordinary for me and I am enjoying it.