happenings

So I have planned for an entire calendar year on going to my family reunion....it'd not gonna happen. Financially I need to be smart and pay off things and get ready for the big move. I am so nervous about this getting a roomate thing. I hate having to rely on anyone but myself. It is going to be weird sharing my living space with someone again. It has been 2 years since I have lived with anyone but Ashlynn. I am excited though too. It will nice to have an adult to talk to. It will also be nice to have some help keeping a house clean and paying the bills! I love the girl who is going to be rooming with me too. Time is flying! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was saying bye to Dane and now I have 3 months left and a busy 3 months at that! I have to find a place, pack my house and move....then he is home. Hooray!

25 Facts about me.

1.I am a mother.

2.I cry a lot.

3.I love to "save" people

4.I don't have any problems with voicing my opinion (but have been learning to keep my mouth shut unless asked )

5. I used to hate my mom and now she is one of my best friends.

6. My dad is in prison.

7. I have 2 siblings soon to be 3 and I only claim one.

8. I am very forgiving.

9. I know everything about pregnancy. It facinates me.

10.I hate Las Vegas but can't find the strength to leave.

11. I have multiple best friends, but they are all my best friends in very different ways.

12. I have had my heart broken.

13. I have lived on my own since I was 17 years old.

14. I have joint custody with my daughters father.

15. I always knew I was going to be a young mother.

16. I talk to my cousin Hailey every single day.

17. I change my mind about things on a daily basis.

18. I may have a shopping problem.

19. I love weddings.

20. I normally don't stay single long.

21. I am extremely loyal.

22. I re-decorate my room frequently.

23. My eyes water everytime I laugh.

24. I plan my halloween costume for the next year the day after halloween.

25. I love country music.

15 weeks and counting

What a rollercoaster of emotions. Everyday I feel something completely different from the day before. This has really become a test for me. I like to think I am a strong willed person, but I don't know how strong I think I am anymore. I am eager to see what comes from this waiting. I have high hopes, don't I always. I am trying to not expect too much from this but I am afraid if I do that I will not be %100 me. It's hard to concentrate on everything lately too. There are too many distractions. I need to get my head straight. I can't wait to kiss him or be kissed. It has been so long since I have been kissed. It's funny how much you can enjoy something as small as a kiss. And skin, I miss skin on skin contact. I am not talking about sex, I am just talking about physical contact. I can't wait until 15 weeks is over to see what happens. I wish I could just flash forward and see. I feel like I am really putting myself out on there to get hurt and I swore I wouldn't do that again. What can I say, I'm a sucker for DANEger. ;)