Im happy.

It's been a long rollercoaster of emotions since the break up of Ashlynn's dad, Steven, and I. This rollercoaster wasn't just him it was since him. I have been damaged goods since the break up. I was devestated and this leaked into other parts of my life. I had 3 more failed relationships since him, only 1 I actually took seriously and I was just generally unhappy. Times have changed. I am single and alone and for the first time I am happier alone then not. I can actually say I'm ok to someone and not be lying. I know this because I don't have that knot at the bottom of my stomach anymore. I got 3 tickets in 1 month and didn't have a melt down. My friend backed into my car and I didn't freak out. It's amazing. I am taking this time to work on me and who I am and its working. I feel so diffrent. I have been doing good at work as well. I got a letter from the VP of the company praising me for the good work I have been doing. That letter was much appreciated. Oh and you know whats even better...when someone tells me about Steven and his wife and the things that they say about me and I am unaffected. You have no idea what kind of feeling that is. For so long everything they did affected every part of my life and now it's nothing. He is nothing and they are nothing. I have a great daughter, whom is my entire life, and an apartment all to myself, a great brand new car ( with a dent lol) and I am happy. So to all of you out there who have taken part in my unhappiness, let me be happy because I am really enjoying this unfamilar feeling.